Hi! I’m Elise. My journey to and through motherhood has been more different than I could have ever imagined. There have been more up’s and down’s than I knew possible. If someone would’ve told me what my story to motherhood would entail, I don’t know if i would have believed them. But despite the turbulence, I wouldn’t change who I have become because of it. And I definitely wouldn’t be the mom I am without it.
My husband and I dealt with infertility which ultimately led us to do IVF. A grueling experience that is not for the faint of mind, body or heart. Infertility is such a polarizing and isolating experience. You feel cut off from the rest of the world. It feels as though you are watching everyone’s lives pass by you, as yours is stuck at a standstill. For my husband and I, IVF was successful and we became pregnant with twins. A boy and a girl. We were beyond excited. We were planning our futures as a family. Thinking about who we thought they would become. Their personalities. Their likes and dislikes. Their laughs. Unfortunately, I went into preterm labor at just shy of 22 weeks and gave birth to our son and daughter. They both lived long enough for us to say hello and then goodbye. And just like that, all of our plans came crashing down. It felt as though, in an instant, I became someone else. I never knew such pain. For months and months and months, I had never experienced such heartache and longing. I never knew such utter darkness could exist while I was existing. Through the grieving, I continued to pray and hope and hold onto the feeling of wanting to become a Mother (to children on this earth). Through the grief, we felt emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually led to grow our family through adoption. The process was long. It was no easier than infertility. It was heart wrenching and frustrating. It was filled with scammers, an unexpected death of a darling expectant Mother, court hearings and a fight of a lifetime to adopt a little boy who we named Ezra Mookie Harris. Since the moment I met my son, a week after he was born, my longing to be a mother was completed. Every ounce of my soul was filled with wholeness. My purpose was met. My heart never knew such love.
Through everything, I maintained the mindset that I would not give up. That I WOULD be a mother. There were days that it didn’t seem possible, but even down in the deepest part of my being, I knew I hadn’t come this far to just come this far. Life felt like a wildfire. I felt like I had been burned. Every ounce of me was ash. But I couldn’t shake the feeling that there was a purpose for why I was experiencing all of this. This fire that was my life felt chaotic and destructive. But the longer the fire burned, the more I realized that fire is necessary. And fire can be good. Underneath the flames lies change and growth. When the fire turned me to ashes, I re-emerged and was restored. I was new. I was ready to be a Mother that was full of life experiences to share. A Mother who would be more empathetic. A Mother who would fight.
Looking back, I can see why. I can see why my journey to motherhood looked different than many peoples whose lives were passing by me. I was being guided to a child I never would’ve met otherwise. I was being guided to MY child.
I am grateful for my journey to and through motherhood. I am proud of who I have become. I am grateful for the relationships that have been built. I am grateful for the bond my husband and I share. I am grateful I’ll be able to see my angels in Heaven one day. And I am grateful for every moment I get to share with my son here on this earth.
Elise and her husband Winston are hoping to continue to grow their family through adoption. They are looking to connect with an expectant mother through the power of social media. Let’s help them spread the word and make Ezra a big bro. Follow + support Elise in their adoption journey on Instagram - @literallyelise
Women's hat sizes are fairly intuitive. The average women's head size measures around 57cm. If you are unsure of your hat size the Gigi Pip small/medium hat would be the best starting point. The small/medium hat size is made to fit 57cm + can be adjusted down to 55cm. If you know you have a slightly larger head go with the 59cm size. As far as Gigi Pip sizing goes this is a medium/large, made to fit a 59cm head size + then can be adjusted down to 57cm. The largest size Gigi Pip offers is a 61 cm, labeled as an XL, like our other sizes the 61 can be sized down to 59 cm. For women who feel they have a slightly smaller head than normal we recommend an XS which begins at 55cm + can be sized down to 53 cm. In select styles we offer kids sizing which begins at 53 cm + can be adjusted to 51 cm.
In short- the most common hat size is a S/M (57cm). While this is the most common hat size, remember that properly sizing your Gigi Pip hat will ensure the best fit.
There are two primary methods of measuring your hat size + are based on the style in which you wear your hat. You will need to take both measurements (shown below) + then use the larger of the two measurements to determine your hat size. Once you've received your hat, you can decide how you would like to wear it + adjust your hat size accordingly.
TIP: If you don't have a textile measuring tape, use a string or piece of yarn to measure the distance around your head. After you have marked the yarn around your head, lay it out flat on the ground or table + measure the straightened out piece of yarn with a measuring stick or regular measuring tape.
Adjustable Inner Band Instructions
Flip up the sweatband to find the Velcro tab + pull to tighten. Velcro the ribbon back in place to secure your desired fit. The adjustable band can adjust the hat up to 5 cm when necessary! Some helpful tips about our adjustable inner band-
Hat Sizing Tape Instructions
Hat sizing tape is an additional option for tightening the fit of your hat. Place the foam tape on the inside of your hat, behind the sweatband, with the sticky side facing towards the hat wall. Wrap the tape completely around the hat for maximum size decrease or cut tape length in half for a more moderate decrease. Size to fit prior to removing the adhesive cover. Once the fit is correct, remove the adhesive cover, press firmly into place, and wa-lah.
For more questions about hat sizing, please contact Gigi Pip at email@example.com.